Life among people

Living among these people, I learned that I am running after Money
But, that is not what i wanted to run after.

Living among these people, I started to loose pride and respect
But, that is not what i wanted to loose.

Living among these people, I have been lying all my life
But, I wanted to be truthful throughout my life

Living among these people, I started to do anything for living
But, I do not want to do anything just for living

Living among these people, I learned lot of things
But, Most of them were unwanted things

Living among these people, I learned what life is
But, It turned out lot more than what I expected

Living among these people, I learned difference between good and bad
But, what i believed as good turned out to be bad

Living among these people, I learned laughter
But, It was more prettier when it came out of someone you care

Living among these people, I learned what death is
But, it appears more than physical disappearance

Living among these people, I learned speech and words
But, It turned out that its used mostly for what it not meant to be

Living among these people, I learned writing
But, It turned out that its purpose has not served

Living among these people, I realized many things
But, It would be wasted, if I haven't passed it on

Axioms

It has been long time, since i have visited my blogging site. There were many times i felt that i should write a blog now but, all the times i would just have only the concept and not the whole summary and many times, i felt very lazy to build the blog on top of the concept. Even now I am just starting with the core, will try to give my best to convert it to blog.

I have been reading less recently due to my work commitments and other personal commitments, but whenever i read something there were millions of questions popping in my mind. Some of them I get answers and some of them i will forget sooner and only few out of those will stay in my mind and keep haunting me forever. One such questions to me is the question about Trust/Belief.

All things around us are based on Axioms which can neither proved nor disproved. say for eg. In mathematics 1+1 = 2 this is an axiom. you can never prove it and you cannot disprove it either because all your complex mathematics are based on these fundamentals. so what will happen if you started to think that 1+1 is not equal to 2. Just give it a thought. The same thing happened to me while reading a book.

It basically demolished all the morals and beliefs based on which our day to day life runs. The more sad part of this is that the book is considered as one of the epics in our culture. This again raised few other questions like could it be possible the author who translated the epic be wrong or the people who say that as our epic and not following the practices preached in the epic is wrong. if we drag this thread the questions will go on and on and will eventually lead to one basic question "How do we believe someone / something ?"

There has been lot of things we came across and lot of things which we doesn't know and at each and every instant of our life time we have been dealing with different kinds of people. In all the times we handle the situation with blind assumption that whatever we believe is correct, everything else is wrong. I have been like that in the past now with all these questioning comes to mind, I stopped trusting everyone.

Say a father instructs his son to be honest and truthful without himself being honest and truthful. Do you think that the child will be truthful in his life ?? I doubt he would. I believe that child learns from your behavior and not through words. Even if we assume that he believes his father and what would happen when the child came to know the truth?? He would stop believing his father anymore. If that is what happens, what would happen to his belief?? Its an unanswerable question, we may never know where his beliefs turn towards.

In days of yore people say that one will get all these instructions from a preceptor and he will get all his doubts clarified. But how would one Identify his preceptor. Even if someone comes and says that I am your preceptor how can one believe that ??. Is it the responsibility of the pupil to believe his preceptor or is it preceptors responsibility to bring belief in him.

I have been searching for answers everywhere but all i have come across is that how one should behave towards his preceptor and not how one can believe that so and so is his preceptor. These all gets one confused and the scriptures and vedas say that one shouldn't question scriptures, veda's and its ways. but i am actually questioning them to get belief in them. Without questioning how can one go on and blindly believe in something ??? That's again another question.

Axioms are something which are unquestionable, we all run our lives based on these fundamentals and if something breaks our basement then our life cannot sustain. It will be miserable and even if you try searching answers in Veda's and scriptures, it would just provide you information about how to follow it and not how to believe it.

These questions come and go but will never get resolved unless and until you realize the answers yourself, till then one is considered as struck at the same point without proceeding further in his path of morality.

Deceit

Recently, I have been thinking about upgrading my mobile phone. There is this one mobile phone (s2) which attracted me a lot. The only thing i hated about is its cost. Its way too expensive and i was a bit hesitant to buy it. Its nothing like I am not capable of getting one but, It actually triggered this question in my mind. Is it OK to spend so much money on this mobile ?? Will i be using the mobile worth fully for the amount I spent on it ??

There is no doubt that the phone provides all the feature it has promised and most of them are latest in technology but what is my stake in it? for example, it has WIFI which i can use only in home as the concept of hot-spot has not flourished in my country. But I already have a laptop and i am quite happy using it for surfing. It has DLNA functionality but again one needs to be connected to the same sub network to use the DLNA functionality in which case when i am sharing my media, I need to have my mobile within my home. i cannot go any where, any personal calls i will be missing. It has HD video recording and playing. if my usage is analyzed i will hardly use the camera in the mobile and i am pretty sure that feature is a liability to me.

I kept on analyzing all the feature that the mobile provides, finally I narrowed it to one feature apart from calling, PDF reader. I may use PDF reader to read some books. I am not that geeky to use all the features it provides but yet my desire to get one such mobile is high. I am not able to suppress it. Its like I need it badly and at the same time, I do not need a mobile with so many features which i barely use.

As always, I started to co-relate these things with life. That is when i realized the whole world is deceitful and in this world you will get what ever you want but you have to pay price for it. The price may be so high that making those decisions change the course of your life. Again it is what you decide defines you. I couldn't stop recalling an old saying here "Deep down your heart you may be an innocent child, but it is what you do decides who you are". So true !!!

Me & Myself

Everything that happen around us is for a reason and no one does anything without a reason. The reasoning of a person is based on his trust/belief. Depending upon the circumstances they grow up, each person develop their own trust and start believing in it. When two persons of different belief meet each other the situation would be chaotic.

One start to develop their trust by reasoning it. As I believe they will start to reason anything which they don't know I mean they will argue the pros and cons internally or as they call it analyze the situation and will come to the conclusion based on the analysis. It is not always sure that we arrive at the correct solution. some time we come up with some extraordinary solution which would eventually turn out to be a bad decision. The point here is as and when we make the wrong decision we learn from it. we will just realize the point which we missed in our decision making and will remember to consider it when we encounter the same situation again.

We will be crossing many such situations in our day to day life and all our decision here makes him a perfect man. There are people who keeps on arguing about the pros and cons and will never come to any conclusion. They will be fearing their decision and will be afraid to face the consequences. In fact, I myself was one such person who fears to make decisions. But one thing which i noticed is they are powerful in making the decision for know things only when something new comes they will be prolonging their arguments till the last minute and when the time comes they will go with the momentary decision which ever comes to their mind and not with the analyzed decision. If luck favors then the decision would be successful.

I may be wrong here but the pain and stress they undergo to make a decision in new things is pretty huge. Only thing is no one know it and it is not one such thing which can be discussed with anyone because it would be like you will be arguing against yourself. In either way you will lose and gain. One thing which made me realize this is an argument with one of my friend about some topic which i don't remember right now. It was like he was arguing positively and i was against the topic and it went on so long and eventually at one point of time he started to give up and agree on what i said but i couldn't accept that he gave up. I just felt that he is not convinced by my words but is giving up because the argument is prolonging. I started motivating him by supporting his thoughts and it was like i was against myself and was breaking all the strong points which i made earlier.

It was like Me & myself arguing against each other and it went on endlessly. As i mentioned earlier i couldn't arrive at an analyzed solution at that point of time rather i can just keep that off from my mind in the name of god. What ever I did, I started to blame it against god. Be it good or bad, I started to convince myself that the outcome is gods decision and because he wanted me to that i am doing this. I felt better and relieved stress fully. The problem started again with arguing my way of believing in god. my argument against myself was stupid but at the same time i feel that this is something which no one has looked at it and putting the thoughts saying what if it(my belief towards god) is correct ?

The argument never ends as it happens inside my mind what ever solution I come up with, I argue against it with some other reason. It gave me one belief such that you can never get yourself satisfied fully and hence a person will not be good to everyone. I do not know when the argument inside me will end but i believe that me arguing against myself is the one good source of my wisdom!!!.

Kshatriyas Extermination

We have been enjoying all the pleasures provided by the technology. Everyday we keep on noticing some new inventions, we even hear rumors about few advanced technologies and we may never know when those dream will come true. But here we are enjoying happy moments of life. Our life now are not without problems as well, there are mere day to day problems like, daily power cuts, money inflation and problem of survival.

if i take a deeper dive into these problems and see their origin. They were not something which existed long back. The problem of power cut were not faced by ancient people becoz electricity was not invented those days. There were no money inflation problem as there were abundant resources available. There were survival problem but that's not because of the inflation and society but for war. I didn't meant to say that there weren't problems in ancient days all i meant to say is that they had problem of their time which they were facing happily and lived freely.

so what caused all these problems? when i asked this question myself there were lot of answers revolving around and first thing came to my mind was whom to accuse and how to accuse. I never realized the problem that resided in me. we people complain about many things and everyone and always think that what we do is correct and what we understand is the world but in real the world extends way far beyond our knowledge our understanding is not even one millionth part of it. we have lost many of our talents, race, art and we call our self as an icon for culture when we our self has been spoiling it.

my recent readings depicted this kind of situation in ancient history. It was about Rama son of Jamadagni (Parasurama). It was said that he exterminated Kshatriya's from this world 7 times. The times that earth underwent bereft of Kshatriya's were very much bitter and it is really hard for me to reproduce here. It is always said that the duty of a Brahman is to perform sacrifices and that of Vaishyas is to increase the wealth and that of Kshatriya is to protect them. There is one another race called sudras who are meant to serve the other three. In the absence of Kshatriya's there will be no one to protect. Not only that ancient sages has written vedas and sastras about what each kind of people have to do and the qualities they should posses. A kshatriya is one who not only protects people but also lives according to that standard.

Its very hard to see one such kind of person now a days whats even hurting is that whenever a person is engaged in fighting or even in quarrel people started believing that he is bad this gets worse when they come to know that if he has taken life of a person. But in ancient days that was the duty of Kshatriya we can even say that we are respecting people who serve for this country in military and police departments but in real we are kind of step away from these people we do not know these people we always step aside budge for anything for peaceful life. we even lose our self-respect.

Pride and Honor used to be our address once. self-respect is what we live for and look at what we have become. very few people i would say that still lives or at-least try to achieve those. what has happened ? and what has changed us completely?. Every one in this world lives based on their belief whether he is good or evil he will be believing something and will be living for it. Something has happened which changed our entire belief we are now doubting anything and everything that is around us. we our self has lost our trust and we are not trustworthy any more. Everyday our belief is changing as we are not living for the belief we are living for survival as we started to believe "Do anything for survival, As long as i live i don't care anybody doing anything and i will do anything to live the life better".

Many people don't even realize it. there is no one to protect the virtue and modesty. Everything is dead and buried as the Kshatriya's has been exterminated.

7am Arivu, A weird thought

I have named the blog as weird thought but i am not sure whether the thought is weird or not. I have been very much attracted to the epic Mahabharata recently and ever since i started reading the epic Mahabharata I was very much eager to know what my karma was. As always its not an easy task to know your karma and fulfilling it. I kept on waiting and eagerly read all the historic incident or novels which could give me some reference of hint towards my karma.

I am not sure why i am writing about this blog but i felt it is my duty to express this thought of mine. when i was seriously exploring my karma, I came across a Tamil movie named "7am Arivu" meaning 7th sense. The movie was about bringing back the talent that existed among our ancient people. This movie not only talks about the science that our fore fathers followed and also shows us how advanced it is and how powerful it is.

I would like to quote to reference about the main theme of the movie that the research carried out by "Subha" (Sruthi Hasan) was not just invoking the ancient talents in the young DNA but also the method she used was based on the book that was written in olden days. It is not hard to believe that our fore fathers were powerful but yet it was difficult for me to believe that how exactly it could be achieved through our modern science and how still people are researching at the beginning stage of those technologies.

The part which i liked the most about the movie is that it also showed how our own thought and idea were ignored among the people who call themselves as the godfather of science ( I need to rephrase this as Indian god father of science ). Even though it hurts to witness that Indian scientists are not supporting the ancient Indian science, we kind of need to accept that we as Indians are quite attracted towards the foreign nations.

The benefits and the joy that the culture of foreign nation provide may attract us temporarily but when one realizes what our culture preaches and the goal it lead us is quite amazing to believe. At first i was one of the guy who used to mock people boasting on Indian culture and Ancient Indian practices till i experienced one for myself. I used to lie for my own benefits and i was habituated to fake promises for my own benefits.

Ever since I started reading Mahabharata, I was quite attracted towards what it preaches, I started analyzing the benefits that people enjoyed by following those practices, I promised myself that i would try to achieve at least one that was preached in Mahabharata. I was so touched with Yudisthira and Arjuna's character and wanted to try out what their character suggests. One among it was keeping the promises and being best at what they were doing. I kind of tried the first thing.

Not to say that it was really a difficult task to keep up with my own word but i kind of experienced some unknown happiness when i achieved it in any one of my task. I was really enjoying it and was feeling very much satisfied and complete when i was able to do it. That is when i realized the things that was preached in our ancient history was not just what they fooled us to blindly follow but they wanted us to understand the meaning of it and enjoy the complete benefit of it. I would like to quote one of the incident which my friend, philosopher or i can even call him as my preceptor quoted about Mahabharata.

He once mentioned that in Mahabharata, "Drona used to give a task of fetching a pot full of water to his disciples before starting his classes and used to start his lecturer once his first student arrives. He also wanted to make sure that his son Aswatama gets his full lessons by giving him a smaller pot". My friend also used to state that "Arjuna never missed the lessons even though he was handed a big pot". The secret behind it was he started using his lessons on pancha boothas to achieve his target. we had a discussion about it and kind of agreed that Drona actually meant his pupils to learn that the pancha boothas can be used as per their needs.

So the point i wanted to make out of this is, that i am not sure what exactly was Drona'a intention but if he actually wanted his pupil to learn that lesson, then he was the best teacher i would say on the other hand, if we consider that he was partial to his son even then Arjuna gained the lesson of using the pancha boothas to his convenience even though his preceptor didn't intend him to teach it. The moral in anyways Arjuna was benefited.

This movie "7am Arivu" not only preached about bringing back our culture, but also kind of inplanted the seed that how powerful our forefathers were. I was just wondering if what they showed in the movie viz., bringing back the talents through some gene hierarchy methodology or something ( I was not quite sure about the terminology gene hierarchy methodology ) but if that is true and we were to bring back the past talents, think about how powerful we will be.

Confused!!!. I too was at first when i had this thought but then something told me that when the talent of the people whom we barely remember were so powerful, think about how we would be if we bring back the talents of the people whom we consider as hero's in ancient period viz, Arjuna, Karna and so on. I kind of still believe that we have those talents of our ancient people still hidden within some people who were their inherited heir's. I was really happy for such a thought occurred to an Indian and really hope to see it being achieved in real. Its always good to see a like minded people who actually achieves what they intended.

Hope for the great adventure and turn of events in the future

Naked Truth

5 years before I would never know that i would be in this position as i am now. I do not even know where i would be 5 years henceforward. The present lives forever only difference would be your's present today will be your past tomorrow. I am neither a hardcore reader nor a writer, but i have developed these habits and ever since i started reading the novels my life has changed drastically. I started to live in my own world of imagination :). It would sound funny that i even created in my imagination a plot for my own novels and not just novels i even extended it to present it in the form of video games. How crazy am I??

The naked truth as the topic stands for itself. I kind of got this feeling that nakedness is always bitter to digest. Let it be anything say your thoughts, can you say that you always meant what you said or what you did. In my experience almost everyone doesn't. We lie many times and act differently from our thoughts, we fake our laughs and appreciations and many things we could say. The truth is only you know your naked face and could judge your actions no one else is good enough for it.

I do not know how many believe in "Karma". But recently i kind of have a strong feeling that everyone's life is based on their karma. Ever since I read the great epic "Mahabharata", my perception towards life changed. It has lot of hidden truths in it. Its two early to say as i have read Mahabharata only twice but yet i noticed that it presented differently when i read it for the second time. I guess if i read it for the third time it might present itself in some new form. But the idea of karma has started to attract me ever since i have read this novel.

My this new attraction started questioning me about what my karma is? a difficult question to answer and i am not going to say that i have one but i am anxious to know what it is. I started to realize something while seeking my karma that many people fulfill their destiny without knowing that they were actually destined for this. They perform their duty as if a normal activity and once they fulfill their karma based on their merits, they enjoy rest of their life and leave the world. I have started reading about many historical novels and incidents based on these ideas and in the end i get to know only one thing that you may never feel to live any longer if you have known that your destiny is fulfilled.

Some people know that they are destined for something but do not know what they are destined for and they would be fulfilling their destiny while searching for the same. only few people knows whats their karma is and take the course of the life accordingly to fulfill their karma. we kind of quote reference for those people in ancient history. In todays world people laugh at when you say these words. People mock at you, they crown you as mental, all these for the saying this naked truth.