In the name of trust.....

Trust, Belief these are the great words around which the world revolve. Once wise men used to say "Trusting everyone is dangerous and trusting no one is too dangerous", The more I worried about is the pain caused by the betrayal of trust. I have broken many promises in my life and many promises made to me were broken as well, but i didn't realise the wrath it caused until today.

Yes, My trust on a stranger has been broken and the wrath it caused still hurts me. Trusting a stranger?? who would do it? isn't it weird, but many of us today are forced to trust a stranger at some point of time. I went to a mobile phone service shop last saturday in chennai. Actually I went to chennai to hangout with my friends over a weekend but thought of getting my mobile serviced. I took my mobile to this so called "mr.service" mobile servicing shop in chennai and enquired about its condition and stated him clearly that i will be staying in chennai this weekend and want this mobile phone to be serviced before i leave. He said not to worry it will be done in evening but unfortunately he couldn't do it and asked time till sunday and then it prolonged till monday. I wasn't willing to extend my time and asked them to return the phone, so that i will get it serviced elsewhere, they were not willing to lose a customer initially and was trying to convince me but i wasn't ready to give them time so after few discussions they agreed to return the phone.

I received a call in the sunday afternoon from the service center stating that they were facing few issues and wouldn't be able to return the phone till monday(not even in the original condition which i took it to them). I was little bit obsessed and after few arguments I was left without any option but to give them the time they asked. I enquired about ways of getting my mobile back as i am travelling to bangalore the same day and mode of money transfer. They told that they have shipped the mobile to the customers earlier through courier and will do the same to me and i need to transfer the amount to their account. I was not willing to take the risk of getting the costly mobile shipped, but without any option i accepted it under a condition, that i will pay the amount after receiving the shipment. That guy discussed with his manager and then agreed for the same. Today I called them up in the afternoon to check the status of the mobile they said it will get done in the evening and the mobile will be shipped.

I didn't receive any update till evening and i called them back for the status they said the mobile phone was serviced and working properly but they will be able to ship only after receiving the amount. I want able to bear the wrath it caused to me and i was literally shouting at them over phone for almost 20 minutes. The hardest part was that guy who promised me all these was speaking as if there isn't any fault in his side and he was saying that it was his higher managements decision and he couldn't help it. I was trapped again as my phone is with him and since our arguments and shouting doesn't seem to get to an promising conclusion, I shouted at him saying don't try to play your customer tricks on me and hung up the phone.

I was not able to convince myself as i couldn't accept the fact that i am being betrayed. The wrath it caused is huge that increased my anger to the extent of manhandling them if they were in front of me at that moment.I do not know what to do and i just wanted to shout loudly to cease the wrath it caused. Maybe that would have made my heart lighter, but in the current society people will tag you as mentally retarded if you do so. I was trying to suppress my anger and scolded him a lot inside and after few mins i was back to normal but this made me realise the wrath of betrayal and trust. I was just wondering if any of my act would have caused similar effect in someone else. I couldn't able to recall any such incidence known to me, maybe without my knowledge there could be many such one but I realised not to do such things in my future. There could be times where we fail to meet our promises but we shouldn't be in a position to provoke others atleast we should feel sorry for our act and have to try and convince the other in any means. I may not be right here for all but my instincts says that if I do that i am able to follow it, I will be happy.

It would be easy to break the trust but it will be harder to gain it back. It would be easy to break a heart but difficult to win them back. it could be for small things but you are breaking the trust and hurting others feeling. No wonder the wrath in Kannagi has consumed the whole city of madurai.

Ruined Sacreds

Last weekend I was on a trip to Rameswaram one of the sacred places in indian history. It was believed that this is the place where lord Rama built a bridge of approximately 18kms to srilanka(also popularly know as Ram sethu or Adams bridge).

We can still find more reference of this place in the great Indian epic Ramayana. It was said that this temple is built with 22 wells and was believed that the taste of the water is different in each of the wells.

We reached Rameswaram early morning around 3:00 am and we have booked a hall for all the people(my family members and relations) and because this is a kind of initiation for the celebrated Sashtiaapdapoorthi of my parents the number accompanied us was more which forced us to take a hall instead of individual rooms.

We started to the shore at around 7:00 am in the morning to take the holy bath in the sea as it was believed by ancestors. I was informed about the practise followed there in the holy bath, people used to leave their old clothes in the sea and get dressed with the new clothes after their bath. I really have no idea why do we follow such a custom but when I reached the sea was quite taken aback at the view of the shore. It was all full of clothes and there is a dedicated person employed(I believe) who collects the clothes and dumps it in a heap besides the shore periodically.

I do not know neither the origin of this practise nor the root cause behind it, but all I saw is the blind belief of the people who come there in the hope that they will be purified from all their sins and follow blindly what it has been said. We too followed the same rituals then proceeded towards the temple.


Usually people take bath in all the 22 wells inside the temple before going to prahara(place where the main god of the temple resides). I noticed that some of the wells were drained completely and were without water. Just then I started realising the fact that these are considered as sacred places yet we failed to preserve all those we didnt take any precautionary measure either, some other wells were almost drained and i doubt that it might sustain for an year.

There were many other places around Rameswaram which were of the same condition. One such place was called villundi theertam(it is believed that Lord Rama created this well with his arrow to quench the thirst of the soilders during their construction of Ram sethu) but localites say that these places were drained of water and were not cosidered as the sacred anymore. I was just wondering what makes a place sacred and when does it loses its sacradity? and what do we need to do to make a place sacred?

My historic knowledge says that the places which we consider now as sacred were the places dwelt by the famous persons of great ascetics, its pain to accept that we failed to carry forward the sacreds which was presented to us by our ancestors. we are not even bauthering to protect the one which we already have.

when we were in the temple waiting for the darshan, I heard a local guy saying that the "sinners have increased thats why temples are crowded". I couldnt get those words out of my ears even after reaching home.

What made me Blog ??

I have been blogging quite some times now, not regularly tough but ocationally.

All these times i was always thinking about what i am blogging about and never have this thought occured to my why am i blogging? and what made me to start blogging?.

Thinking about this i recalled memories about my past blogging. This blogsite was not the first which i started my blog, infact i do not even remember the URI of my first blogsite. But I do remember what i blogged about, it was about a local trip of mine with my friends and i had few memories which i could share it in the block as the trip had few incidents which was funny to remember.

Again that tells me what i blogged about but not why i started blogging.

To be true i may have to accept that i started blogging not out of interest, not out of curiosity but in seek of attention. I am a software engineer and its no wonder that people around me know about blogging and some were already blogging at the time i started my carrer. I used to be around those blogging people(B-people I used to say) and many people in that company came to him and he was recognised by many no matter where ever he goes and what ever he does. This created interest for me to blog. I wanted to be in that position and I wanted to create attention and awareness about my presence to all those around me, so I decided to create a blog for myself.

Now created the blog, what to write? Like all the novice users i too started to read others blog before deciding about what to write and how to write. I have visited many blog sites and read few blogs and i couldnt able to decide what all these says and what topic would suite me to blog. Days went on and the counts of the blogs i visited increased, later i realised the fact that its blogging and you can share any of your thoughts no matter what you write there will be someone who will read what ever we write. This boosted my confidence to start writing a blog. About at the same time we(My Friends and I) went for a trip to some falls and I decided to write a blog about it.

Neither did I do any analysis nor did I care about what i am writing in the blog. My mind is filled with thoughts that "I am writing a blog". I didnt strain much in completing my first blog to say it truely I finished the blog in hours and then posted it. Now the thought of drawing attention was completely out of my mind as I was appreciating myself for successful completion of the blog. It didnt really occur to me that I need to advertise it so that other will read it.

The enthusiasm of completing the blog suppressed slowly after couple of days. Now being back to normal I was expecting other to come to me and say something about my blog, be it good or bad(ofcourse I was praying that I should recieve some good coments). But nothing happened and then a sudden curiosity occured to me to check the number of hits that my blog took. Being novice i do not know all these tricks, I started surfing the net again.

No wonder I got the solution immediately after googling for some time. I started exploring the option. The blogger site itself provides these kind of option, all we need to do is follow the steps. Placing the counter in my blogsite I waited for a week then opened my blog to check the counter and as you all anticipate it was still counting the same may be got increased by one as i visited the blog again. Only then I realized no matter whatever we write and how good we write we need to get it advertised to attract people.

Afraid of posting my blog in any public forum. I decide to send a mail to my relatives and friends(note i didnt want to open it to my colleagues as well as i an afraid of critics)and then i started recieving feedback. some said it was nice(though they know how horrible my presentation was) and some said it was not bad for the first time writer and some laughed at me writing a blog and some even threatened me saying that you are sharing information in the net and bla! bla! bla!.

That was my starting point to blog, and I am happy to say that my presentation skills has been improved by blogging but still I am working on improving it more and most of all blogging gives me the satisfaction that i am able to tell something to someone that lessens the burden in my heart.

Go Blogging Go !!